What's you plan?
This month marks my fifth year living in LA. That's crazy! It hit me this morning as I lied in bed staring out my window mesmerized by the view, how far I have come and how much I have accomplished. No, I have not booked national commercials or costarred in TV series, I haven't even gotten paid more that $300 for a gig but why should I let that bring me down? It has become so easy for us in this society to beat ourselves up, we get angry and upset at ourselves for not doing bigger and better things. I am a prime example of that. Of course I want more for myself, YES I am craving that big break and HELL YAH I want to live off of my craft, I want that more than anything in the world. However, I am now becoming more aware of how to acknowledge all the things that I have done to get me where I am in this very moment! I bought a car, I built good credit, I manage a restaurant, I teach dance, I have built up a strong acting resume, I have become physically fit, I moved in to my own apartment (by myself first time in my life), I have cried, I have laughed, I have fought, I have screamed and I have felt absolutely broken. Most of all I have felt like a woman, a strong woman, who has built a strong life from the little she started out with. What I have learned over the past five years is that being away from my family is the biggest struggle I have ever faced. I miss them every single day. I am so grateful and blessed for all my parents help and love and for my entire family for all the support and encouragement. I truly don't think I would be here if I didn't have the most amazing mom and dad, and how hard it must have been to see their daughter leave home. I love them with every bone in my body, they are my rock! Every day is a journey for me, every day is a new experience, an opportunity to create my reality, and another day I have to be thankful for living in this beautiful city working towards my dreams and ultimate goal. Five years. Wow. I love my life.